Mixed emotions today. I feel extremely gross, and horrible because of my extreme weight. Officially, I weigh 342 lbs. I have never weighed that much in my life. I could sit here and feel sorry for myself. But in all honestly, I know that is NOT what God wants. That insecurity shall be thrown aside. I am a daughter and princess of the king. Lord, help me eat healthier and exercise to lose weight. I want to do this right. I feel the physical struggle of not moving- and the mental struggle of feeling like I never can change. Those are all lies fed from Satan, and crap. Thank you God for your protection, devotion and love. Love you daddy king!